Since Bryan was working in the morning, I met him at the hospital. When I got there I started drinking my bottle of water. Anyone who knows me knows it takes me forever to drink water, let alone finish a bottle. I had to finish this bottle in an hour and I did it like a champ. Anything for that little embryo!
After finishing my water, the nurse asked me to come back and change into my "hospital gear." I was SO excited to get to wear those socks again! Once I changed, the nurse asked me questions and then Bryan came back and joined me to wait to talk to the dr about our little embies!
Once the dr came we started discussing our embryos and what would be best. She told us that she only wanted to put one in since putting two in can result in twins and that can result in a lot of risks. She stated that out of the 6 embryos, 4 were still strong and healthy. They were freezing 3 and putting one in me. Although we went into this expecting to put one in, we understood why she wanted to only put in one. Bryan agreed with her and I was wisked away to pick up my baby!
I walked into the operating room and was not as nervous as the last time. I laid down on the table and got into position. I now realized how bad I had to pee. The team of doctors were amazing to me and made me feel really comfortable. I was told to look up at the screen once the dr started inserting tools, and was asked to verify my name on the dish with my embie! I then got to see the most perfect special little embie I had ever seen! I said outloud "OMG ITS SO CUTE!" and was happy when the one dr said "we think so too." I was able to watch, on the screen, the drs take my little embie out of its growing dish, get sucked into the catheter, and then inserted into me! All of this totally took my distraction away from any pain, and the fact that I was spread eagle with my legs up in the air with bright lights on me.
Afterwards I was so happy I couldn't wait to see Bryan. The dr wheeled me into the recovery area, gave me a new heated blanket, and went over recovery directions. She then gave me a picture of my little embie and I got all teared up! I never knew that something so small could mean SO much to me. I realized that everything I had done up until this point was well worth it for this beautiful little embryo.
Bryan came in after 9 minutes. I know this because I had to wait 20 minutes to pee and had to pee so bad that I was getting minute updates from the nurse. Once he got there I got distracted again showing him our little baby. Seeing how happy he was, again, made me all teary eyed. He couldn't wait to tell his friends and family about our little embie.
Dear Little Embryo,
You are the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. Although this is not the conventional way I had pictured, you are the most perfect little embryo we could have asked for. You are a mix of your daddy and myself and our love. Because of you, I was able to be stronger than I expcted to be and do things I didn't think I could. I hope and pray the best for you and us. I was once told the higher the climb, the better the view and I think all of the hard work has proved to be worth it seeing you today. I love you.
Love always,
Mommy and Daddy (and Jordan, Lynxie, Romo & Bella)
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